Wow! It’s crazy to believe the summer is almost over! What a crazy summer it has been for me, like holy cow! I took a summer class, worked part-time, got married, went on a honeymoon, got back to immediately go to youth camp, moved into a new house, out of my apartment, joined a new church, and I won’t bore you with the rest. What I’m trying to get you to understand is that I went through a LOT of transitions in a matter on months, but more like month. Some of the transitions have been easy and some have been hard, BUT I’m trying to learn to see the purpose behind the transitions. I’m trying to push myself into learning what God is trying to teach me in these seasons of change.
We’re approaching Fall ever so slowly and I am more than thrilled. I love fall. I love the weather, the smells, the clothes, the holidays, I just love everything about that season. What I love most about Fall is that it reminds us that change is only natural. It reminds us that change will come, but it is in order to help us grow. Plants lose their leaves in the fall to conserve water, so that they can survive the winter weather conditions. Then after the winter months end and the growing season begins again, the plants will regrow what they need to survive the spring/summer months.
This is very similar to when we, as humans, go through changes. When we are faced with changes, it is because we either need to let go of something in order to survive or we need to grow, or add, something in order to survive. For me, in this season I have had to let go of a lot of things. I had to let go of the place that had become my home. I had to let go of my church that I was heavily involved in and where God totally wrecked my life. I had to let go of my best friends being down the road from me. I had to let go of the security of knowing my way around, who I had in my corner, and being comfortable. I even had to let go of my own name, my identity. I had to let go of my tight grasp on comfortabilty in order for God to bring me where I’m at now.
Just like the leaves, I am having to slowly stop searching for the water (or the things I thought I needed), so that He can be my survival kit. I’m not going to lie to you, this transition has been really hard. It was easier when Brad wasn’t working, but ever since he went back to work it’s been brutal. I am extremely lonely. I’ve been spending the majority of my free time sleeping because I don’t know anyone nor do I know how to waste time here yet. I have been trying to distract myself with Netflix, cooking, cleaning, and sleeping to simply look over the fact that I am missing something. I keep calling it “friends.” If I only I had friends..If only I knew people here..If only….BUT I don’t think that’s my problem (although friends would be nice and it would be comforting.)
My problem is that I’ve been looking at this transition from the wrong angle. I was labeling it as fear, which it was, but in reality, I was angry. I was angry that I had to leave my life, my church, and my home. I was so mad and upset that I just soaked in it. I never even tried to see the positives or the bright side (my poor husband y’all, pray for him, I’m a piece of work). What I was missing was that I get to create a new life, be involved in a new church, and create a new home with my best friend. What I was missing was the desire to see God’s hand in all of this. It was easier for me to be mad, upset, and mope around. It was easier for me to feel defeated then to even try to understand what God was trying to teach me.
Ecclesiastes 3:1 says, “There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the Heavens”
There is a time to let go and rely on God. There is a time to give up the things that are comfortable to us so that we can grow. The leaves falling make the tree different, without them it’s easy to claim that the tree is dead. In reality, the tree is more alive than it would have been if the leaves were still there. In some situations it’s easy to feel dead, alone, lost, or frustrated. Take heart my friend, because God is working to make you more alive than you ever imagined. In those times, seek after Him. He wants to teach you, grow you, stretch you, use you, and do things you never imagined. He wants to change you.
Change is a word that I often run from. I hate change. I like to understand and have control over my situations. God has been really challenging me in that aspect of my life. Maybe you’re the same way, you don’t like change and in fact, you fear change. When we know who’s in control of our lives, it makes it easier to trust that the outcome will be good for us. We sometimes get caught up in the mindset that I know best, when in reality that’s normally not the truth. When we trust that God has our best interest at heart, it’s much easier to embrace the changes that may come our way. It’s much easier to follow His lead. It’s much much easier to seek to understand when we trust the One who is leading us.
On the other hand, there are seasons where God wants to give us something or add something. Similar to the leaves, God will allow us to go through seasons where the growth is obvious and life looks good. A season where it’s easier. Seasons where it’s easy can still be seasons of change. The trees are growing their leaves and it looks beautiful, but it is still a process. God uses these seasons to push us into our callings. These are the seasons where prays are being answered, God is moving so clearly, and where God is revealing to us our strengths and how He is going to use us for Kingdom work. These seasons are so crucial for our faith. There is nothing that will strengthen your faith more than being used by God. God uses these growing seasons to encourage us, push us, and to challenge us.
We can’t have the fall season without the growing season. We can’t have the growing season without the fall season. Every season of our life is so important and crucial. We must soak up everything we can get out of it while we still have time. God takes what we’ve learned in those difficult seasons and uses them to reach people in our growing season. He takes the stories and testimonies from the season of feeling dead to empower people when you feel alive. He uses the moments from the growing seasons to help get us through the fall seasons. He uses the strength we’ve built in the growing seasons to encourage us in the fall seasons. My best advice is to never waste a season and never take a season for granted, because each and every season of our lives have purpose.
Seasons may be hard, but they are always there to teach us. Never waste a season and never take it for granted. I can’t stress that enough. There were so many seasons of my life that God was trying to teach me in, but I decided that I didn’t like His tactic and I didn’t allow myself to learn anything. There were so many times that God presented me with a growing season and I decided that I wasn’t good enough, or adequate enough, and I let it pass me by. We cannot miss these crucial moments. Each season we go through is preparing us for the next season to come.
Right now, in this season of my life, I know I’m in a season of learning and letting go. I’m in a season of really relying on God. I am learning how to be a wife. I am learning how to be in ministry (like actual ministry). I am learning how to be by myself (this one is the hardest for me). I am going to be entering into a new job here in a couple weeks and I will definitely be learning a lot there. There a lot of new things in my life and it can be intimidating at times. I am learning to look at it a different way. I am learning how to truly see God in the midst of it.
There a lot of places in my life that God wants to grow me. There a lot of areas in my life that God wants me to be better at. We have to understand that these seasons are meant to help us survive. They are meant to benefit our lives, not to make them worse. We serve a good God, with good intentions, who knows the big picture.
So, my challenge to you is to take a step back and look at your life. What season are you in right now? A season of learning and letting go or a season of growth and results? Whatever season you’re in, pray that God would reveal to you what He is doing through this time. It is so much easier to trust God once we allow Him to reveal to us what He’s doing. So often though, we are too scared to ask. We just tread water and hope for the best. That’s not what God has for us. He wants to speak to us. He wants to remind us of the calling He has placed on our lives. He wants to reveal dreams and passions in us that we never knew existed. He wants to show us who strong we are and encourage us. He wants to remind us of all that He’s done in the past. He wants to use us. Most importantly, He loves us and He just wants us to trust Him.
Be encouraged, we all go through tough seasons in life. Most of the time it’s when it seems like everyone around us has it good. But that is the enemy, my friends. We also all go through seasons of growth, even if we don’t always realize it. Just remember in every season, God is on the throne and He will take care of you. He has proved Himself faithful time and time again, He won’t let you down this time.